I can say that me and my grandmother are not really close.
The fact that she lives in BOHOL and just having a lil time here in cavite
just to take care of my younger brother.
Yeah she speaks other dialect so that we can't communicate well.
Actually, I can't understand bisaya dialect at all, just the basic ones.
So expect me not to understand what my lola trying to say and vice versa.
She can't also understand my points.

There are times that she's the reason why i'm upset or so whatever because as usual
we had a misunderstanding, she didn't get my point!
I don't know what to do to her! As of now my patience really goes smaller.
Can't do but to understand her situation and her age. Err.

Then here is her statement that got my heart really broken.
Last night while me and my mom were walking, she told me
that she and lola had a conversation about me.
My lola said that she will not be shocked if she know that i will be pregnant later on.
FYI, she got pregnant when she's only 17! And she's comparing me to her! Duh!
Also the fact that she knows that i have a boyfriend that's why she think so.
She also said that me and my boyfriend was so PDA!
Gawd! Sitting together is PDA to her?!
That's how conservative she are! I really don't know how to prove myself to her!

Other factor that she also said is that i'm a LAZY girl!
That i'm not helping in household chores and i just let tita irene to do it all!
She can't even see that im working here like a MAID! Yeah i'm feeling that.
The fact that i'm the only daughter here so it's my job!
Tita Irene is here temporarily with her husband Tito Naldo with they're 3yrs old
son, the reason why they're here is because Tito helps
the worker in painting the house.
So our house is really messy and needs to be clean at a time.
She's only seeing that Tita Irene working!
For her information, i washed the dishes and clothes!
I even do the household chores!
Why can't she see it?
How come that she appreciate other people but not me as her granddaughter?
I'm really tired, tired on proving them that im not that kind
of girl that they think about, not like other teenagers.
I'm different and very far from them!
Hell, i have my plan and dreams!

I'm very downhearted at this moment, can't believe that my own lola will judge me that way.
I hate being judged, who doesn't anyway?
I really need someone to talk to, someone who'll comforts me
and bring back my self esteem, i'm really losing my confidence. x(
Is anybody there?